this is one of the best.
We spent the morning participating in the Great Backyard Bird Count with the Bird Conservancy of the Rockies at Barr Lake. We saw so many friends — western meadowlarks, Canada geese 🇨🇦, white crowned sparrows, American goldfinches, house finches, American robins, an unidentified hawk, a downy woodpecker, and two bald eagles 🦅 🦅, among others.
The Great Backyard Bird Count goes until Monday and you can participate! Get more information and sign up here. It’s fun and easy and it helps researchers learn about how birds are doing.
Like lots of people these days, many of whom have much larger problems than I do, I’ve been having a hard time with what’s happening in America. I’m stressed out about the hard time you’re having if you’re someone who has been targeted or burdened by unfair treatment from Donald Trump and his terrible administration. I’m stressed out about what that same administration and other republicans have been doing to animals and the environment (I talk about this stuff on Twitter all the time — too much, I’m sure, so I won’t go on here, but I have to say if your USDA is run by someone who thinks puppy mills are cool you’re a monster). And as I always say, once you fuck the environment, you can’t unfuck it. I don’t even understand how you could think it’s ok to be a total dick to Mother Earth, the planet we all call home.
So I’ve been doing what I can to try to help and to get by: Donating to the ACLU, the Humane Society of the United States, the Natural Resources Defense Council, the Xerces Society, the Cornell Lab of Ornithology, and Planned Parenthood. Calling my U.S. Senators, one of whom is a total asshole who doesn’t give a shit what I or anyone else who isn’t lining his pockets thinks. Writing letters, sending emails, signing petitions, putting signs in the yard, supporting causes, banding together with neighbors to try to make the world a little friendlier and more hopeful. Seriously considering getting solar panels installed on our house, even if it would require replacing part of our roof that’s only two years old, because I very strongly believe that right now, if you’re not an asshole who doesn’t give a shit about the environment, it’s your absolute duty to do everything you can to help. Engaging in escapist fantasies wherein we say fuck it all and move to Costa Rica, which seems to be a pretty perfect destination for us and totally doable, the downsides being malaria, dengue fever, rampant pesticide use, and the fact that you might wake up with a scorpion in your bed. Stretching it a bit, but supporting Nordstrom by buying a satin bomber jacket featuring bedazzled cranes that I’ll rock even after satin bomber jackets, which are everywhere right now, are out of style in approximately 10 minutes, like, when I’m old and I travel to crane festivals for fun.
Mostly I read Twitter, because I have to know what’s going on and whether I can help with something important at any time, and feel really, super down. If you’re an empathetic person who leans left, you feel the same way. It’s hard and it’s overwhelming and you see people telling you to take care of yourself but you feel like a jerk because you even have the luxury of taking care of yourself. People have died. People have been detained. People have had their rights violated. People are going to be able to kill sleeping bears in their dens and shoot baby wolves in the face. Puppy mills can be even more cruel to puppies and even talking about taking care of myself feels like esoteric bullshit.
But you have to, of course, or you have nothing left to give to anyone else. So I’m trying. One thing I’m working on is going hard into the hippie lifestyle I’ve been gravitating toward for years. I mean yeah, cool, I’ve been vegan since July, but let’s also start getting into herbalism. Let’s sit around looking at rocks (I’ve been trying to meditate for years and as someone with ADHD it’s hard, so baby steps, a pretty crystal gives you something to focus on). Let’s suspend disbelief and let smells change our mood. Let’s realize that nature is our religion, Mother Earth our god. Wearing what most people would consider pajamas out to dinner is totally cool.
I knew I was getting somewhere with this all when one day I told Ben about my spirit animal. I know that’s weird, maybe. But you know what it does? It helps me feel connected to earth and in tune with nature, and that’s monstrously helpful to me right now. And who am I to say no to a spirit animal who presents herself to me? You’re an animal and you’re my friend, and you’re telling me something I particularly need to hear right now.
We’ve had a bird feeder on our front porch for over a year, since Soren and I started homeschooling and he picked the black-capped chickadee as the North American animal he wanted to study. Getting a bird feeder is one of the best things I’ve ever done. I can’t even tell you how much joy it brings me. Before we had the feeder, I remember observing that there weren’t many birds around here. Now, I’ve gotten to know them, lots of them — the chickadees (as expected, they were the first to arrive), house finches, house sparrows, red-breasted nuthatches, dark-eyed juncos, the occasional downy woodpecker, and the northern flicker.
The flickers are the ones who speak to me. There’s a pair who take turns visiting our feeder. They’re much too big for it and cling awkwardly to the side but make it work. Sometimes one will sit on the porch railing, calm face looking around, beautiful feathers shining in the sun. They’re regal and radiate peace. Even if you’re inside with the windows closed, you’ll startle a flicker away if you move or make too much noise. So I’ve learned to stand still and silent, watching the bird for as long as he or she is there, forgetting myself and everything I was doing, feeling a sense of calm and connectedness I haven’t felt before. If I’m outside and hear the “kyeer” from a nearby tree I’ll stop to listen. Even when I don’t see them, I feel better knowing they’re there.
Northern Flickers are large, brown woodpeckers with a gentle expression and handsome black-scalloped plumage. On walks, don’t be surprised if you scare one up from the ground. It’s not where you’d expect to find a woodpecker, but flickers eat mainly ants and beetles, digging for them with their unusual, slightly curved bill. When they fly you’ll see a flash of color in the wings – yellow if you’re in the East, red if you’re in the West – and a bright white flash on the rump.
Flicker medicine is showing you that it is time to find your rhythm, for you have a new cycle of growth that you will be entering. She is grounding and will teach you to connect with Mother Earth and to find balance and harmony in the physical, mental and spiritual realms. Flicker is asking you to take a look at the issues in your life, find the deeper meaning and the hidden qualities in the patterns and “coincidences” that you are experiencing and accept that your perceptions are changing. Trust in your intuition. Flicker’s constant hammering is telling you to have tenacity in your endeavors, while also having patience. Her rhythm will guide you to perfect timing and show you how important it is for healing love and how powerful forgiveness is.
Have you found your balance? Are you connected to Mother Earth and nature spirits? Rhythm is a powerful way to affect your energy – are you tuning in to your own unique rhythm? If you have tuned in to your unique rhythm, are you following it? Do you follow it with tenacity? Do you get frustrated or do you exhibit patience? Do you honor what works for you? If you have not tuned in to your rhythm, then it is time to change what you are doing. Open yourself up to your own healing love and forgiveness so that you can find your rhythm. Do you look at the aspects of your life rationally? Do you jump into situations or do you take the time to dig into them to find the hidden meanings?
I know it’s hard right now, but if you can, find your spirit animal, your whatever it is that helps you feel a little hopeful for the uncertain future.
The other day I read that because it’s been so warm lately, bees have been out and about. They need water, and an easy way to provide it for them is in a container with marbles (rocks work, too). The marbles give them a spot to perch so they don’t drown. We’re always trying to help our pollinator friends. ❤️ 🐝
Today I painted a kitchen. This house we’re working on. Man, it’s taking forever. Ben has done all kinds of fancy stuff but I don’t know how to do many things so I’ve just been painting. So far, I’ve painted the upstairs, which is a gigantic angular bedroom and bathroom; the laundry room; the walls of the downstairs bathroom (thankfully Ben did the bricks, which I’ll show you soon); and one coat on the kitchen (everything but the laundry room has needed two coats).
Wet paint looks bad!
Here are a couple “before” pix, which show that my work today did nothing to improve matters. I’m hoping the second coat helps and that I’ll find the motivation to clean the shit out of the trim and beadboard, which will be painted a nice fresh white. The tenants who lived here before we bought this house never cleaned. I don’t even want to tell you about some of the things I had to scrape out from under the upstairs bedroom trim.
We’re painting the cabinets and giving them new pulls, installing all new appliances and a little islandy-type thing from Ikea, adding some new lighting, and putting in a new sink and counter. We don’t love the floor (it’s faux wood, and I regret to inform you that a previous owner removed all the original wood floors from the back half of the house) but it’s serviceable and will stay for now.
Our hope is that the finished product will be nice but not fancy, so nice but not fancy people can afford to live here with their animals. It’s somewhat boring work, but I kind of feel that providing a decent place for someone to live at a reasonable price is in some small way contributing to society.
Also! You haven’t met our new chickens yet but one of them is already laying! Look at this cute tiny egg!